Here’s a big ‘Ol FUCK YOU!
Most of the time I truly do say what I am thinking because I force myself to think nice things, be agreeable, be empathetic and be open minded. But I have reached my limit, I feel as though I am just going to lose my shit. I am going to blow up and speak what has been on mind lately, which is a very simple, FUCK YOU!
Fuck you crazy neighbor who not only asked me to turn off my wireless router because it gives her headaches, but also for asking me to bring her to the airport at 3 am and on the way kindly mentioning that she will need to be pick up in town weeks at 11pm.
Fuck you other crazy neighbor who told me that my outside porch light was affecting his “space” and that I need to not turn it on.
Fuck you stupid fucking landlord who did not tell me about the crazy neighbors before making me verbally agree to a long term lease.
Fuck you asshole who was hoping to just stop texting me instead of being a man and telling me he was in an exclusive relationship with someone else…whom I didn’t even know he was seeing…even though he was fucking me on a regular bases and coming inside me.
Fuck you to the jerk who never loved me but let me put him on my fucking phone plan that I still have to deal with even after moving away, but isn’t that a pleasant reminder every month of what not to do in the future.
Fuck you to all my friends and acquaintances who keep telling me, “just be happy with yourself and then you’ll meet the one”.
Fuck you to my family for being so financially inept that they are costing me a fortune I do not have.
Fuck you to my current employer…well for so many fucking things I don’t think I could ever even begin to scratch the surface on that one.
And last, for now, and I do apologize for really putting this on paper but Fuck You God for always making life so fucking hard, for everyone. It does not matter how hard you try because it always just gets fucking harder. I have done nothing but work hard to achieve the things I want in life, as so many people have and yet we all just fucking fail, over and over again. I can’t have the things I really want in life and on top of it I have to deal with so much stupid fucking shit that goes wrong on top of life just sucking in the first place.
So Fuck You life!!! And fuck me for never being able to just say that out loud and just pretending that everything is going to be okay. It’s not okay…and I don’t honestly believe it ever will be.